Scratching to Scrawling..

It's about time to empty the kitty litter...

This is a place for all my shit, a place to vent, crap on.. and try and push out whatever it is that is holding me back from living my life..

I have been involved with disease for the past three years. It has utterly consumed every fibre of my being. And with great contentment, i need to let go.. I was never good at saying goodbye.

And this isn't to say i won't return to the dark corner of the room, but in some way i would like to think i am far beyond this now.

I am not going back to the place with the same headspace. Alot of that is in the words you are reading. I've done the thinking, i've done the over analyzing, hell i've even googled ways of 'recovering'. Anything to get me back into the sunlight.

What i'm hoping to gain from my tomorrows;
How to live, not merely exist...
How to love again, heart and soul...
To love and respect myself, before trying to love somebody else...
To listen to my body, feed it, love it, tend to it's needs...
To learn how to just rest, in quiet...
To learn to enjoy things again, slow down, look around, enjoy life...
How to eat in peace...
How to trust myself..
To re-learn my loves, my passions and hobbies...
To wander around this world with a real smile...
To laugh, really laugh... from the inner gizzards...
Not to give up when the going gets tough...

There is no time on this, when somebody asks what i do.. I'm timeless. No point putting a figure on something so beautiful as what life is, and what it can be.
It's only when you give up complete control, that you become whole.

I wish you all hope, love and happiness..now let me do mine.
See you on the other side..


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